Hey, it's me. Bori.

But who the hell is Bori? Well, yes it's me, the one who is typing this. So, you know my name already, let me tell you a little bit about myself. It won't be too long, I promise. Or maybe it will.

Bori was born in Hungary a long time ago in a small town called Győr. She went to kindergarten, primary, secondary, high all that. She was kind of smart - meaning that she managed not to fail any of her classes or tests - but she was never outstanding in anything really. She was always very curious about the world and always found people fascinating, she constantly tried to figure out who they really are and why they behave the way they do. 

Then Bori finished high school and because she wasn't short and fat (not that anything is wrong with that) she started modeling. She was really happy and excited, like most young girls would be when they get picked to do this thing. Her parents didn't really like the idea of the modeling business, but they let her go, let her do her thing and travel while always telling her it's not good. Bori was happy, Bori really wanted to do this thing. People told her to eat less, some of them even gave her pills to loose weight, but Bori didn't care, she just wanted to be a model. Years passed, Bori dropped out of two universities because of modeling, but she's been to so many beautiful countries and met so many interesting people, learned much about the world and herself. But that's not enough for society to go with the flow and live a normal life. How could you get a job with a resume that says 'traveled around the world'?! Ok, maybe nowadays it's possible, but you'd have to be really cool to get a job like that. Bori wasn't that cool back then (she is now, of course) so eventually she did finish a university while also living ten thousand kilometers away from her school. 

Bori never used her degree for anything, but she did enjoy school a lot. She kept on modeling until one day she realized she is not happy. She loved her lifestyle, but she was far away from home, she was getting older, she didn't enjoy fighting for a photoshoot or fashion show with girls ten years younger then her age. She also realized that modeling did something to her brain, which made her see things in a different way. Well maybe she realized that only after she stopped modeling, because that's right: she stopped. Bori's dream of becoming a top model seriously ended. Of course she knew after 3-4 years into modeling that this is not going to happen, Bori is not going to be the next Cindy Crawford, but she wanted to continue doing this for as long as she could. And then one day something stopped her. Something was not right. Something didn't satisfy her anymore. She wanted something more. Something different. 

Bori fled Asia after 5 years of living there, left everything behind without looking back and moved back to her beautiful little country filled with pessimistic little Hungarians. I don't know about the rest of the aging models but it was tough for Bori. Not only did she leave something important for her behind, she had to start from zero. She had and still has no clue what the hell to do with her life but she would also never ever trade her experience of traveling around the world for a normal life. She went through a faze of being jealous of her 'normal' friends having a 'normal' life with a 'normal' job to accepting the fact that this might never happen.
Bori did work in an office for one and a half year, but hell she didn't like that. Some might say Bori is spoiled and maybe she is, but damn, it's hard to get used to that lifestyle. And Bori doesn't want to get used to that lifestyle anymore. She will continue looking for something that is exciting as modeling was until she finds it. You see, after being free for so many years, office feels like prison. While modeling she had 15 hour day shifts, sometimes 2 or 3 jobs a day but then 3 days off. And the jobs she did usually took place in different locations with different people. I can see why others find it comforting to work for a big company with a satisfying salary, climbing the ladder to become something called the manager or CEO or whatever 3 lettered rank. But there is nothing exciting in this for Bori. Bori sees the world in a different way, maybe in a naive kind of way, people would say and she might end up in an office again because of not having enough money to eat, but I really hope that Bori will never give up her dreams because it's easier to let it go than sticking it through to whatever may come.

So that's me, Bori.